Dear Bloggers/Readers
Okay this is going to be another rant on a different topic as this seems to come up all the time and i get asked so many questions about it. Us girls are a rare breed nowadays we are bitchy and well many people say we have two faces. we have one that is kind and listens to what you have to say and the other is always talking shit behind your back.
I'm not gonna lie i used to be like this when i was younger. i had loads of girlfriends who were just like me. Eager to fit in with everyone and bullshit about people we dont like and shit. We did things to make us stand out, talked about parties and what not trying to be cool and be noticed. everyones goals was to be popular, be in with the it crowd. (its funny because when i look back there wasnt really and it crowd and by the end of high school everyone knew of everybody anyway. i ended up knowing everyone and everyone knew me. so looking back i realise there wasnt really much of a point to all this crap. anyway..)But the thing was, i didnt like being that person that put people down behind their backs. Do you know how tiring it is to pretend to be something your not and to bitch about people you actually like is just wrong on so many levels. i'm guilty of that, i did what all the other girls did. i followed the crown like a little sheep. After a while i realised that i didnt want to do this any more. i couldnt care less if these girls didnt like me, and wanted to talk behind my back. i didnt give a flying fuck i was just tired of pretending.
So i separated from them, started to get close to my old friends again who stuck by me, i made new ones that made me laugh and accepted me for me. i was happy. i was no longer following the crowd.
i didnt need to bitch behind peoples backs, i realised that if i had a problem with someone i had to tell them to their face not to their backs.
what i soon realised is that girls dont take too kindly to people being brutally honest to their face. and thats just what i did. i didnt hold back if i had a problem, i laid it out all on the table so they knew what my problem was. Do you know how good it felt to actually confront the person than to chat shit about them behind their back. it was exhilarating.
so over the years thats what i did, it tried not to get involved with any of the gossip, sometimes i failed sometimes i succeeded. i stopped trying to fit in with the other groups. i was happy with my group of friends. they were the best always there for me when i needed them nd i was there for them. we ll had a true friendship and created memories that can never be forgotten.
i was asked quite a lot "why do i have more guy friends than girlfriends?" the simple answer is majority of the girls i knew were two faced and i couldn't deal with all that drama. the few girl friends i had were just like me, they couldnt care less about all the gossip and girl drama. it was why we got along so well. As for the guys well, thats easy they are guys. if they have a problem they confront each other, get it all out of their system and then BOOM everythings back to normal as it nothing just happened. i admire that about guys, they just forgive and forget. not all guys are like that but my guys were. Us girls, we tend to let what evers pissing us off fester until it grows and becomes something bigger than it is, if we are left alone to think about things we take things apart and put it together how we want to see it, its why we are difficult to deal with. many girls plan for the others downfall, make them hated and what have you and i find it petty. i mean what is with that. i can happily say i was never this bad, i wouldnt be able to do that to another person regardless.
anyway My guys were pretty damn amazing, they were funny and each had their own personality. if anyone reading this knows me, you know which guys im on about. they were always there making me smile. i have so many fond memories with them that ust writing this is making me smile. i surrounded myself with these boys because they didnt put up with peoples bullshit, if i had a problem with them we sorted it out and it was like we never had a problem in the first place. they weren't sheep following the crowd, they followed their footsteps and stood out of the crowd. Two of my guys i grew up with so our friendship has been strong for 12 years. i will never forget our friendship. even thought now we have all gone our separate ways me and my boys are still close and i am thankful for that.
So i think im done for now. i would like to hear what you think about this so dont hesitate to leave a comment and please share.
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ashleigh xo
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