I'm Confused.com

Dear Bloggers / Readers,

Well here is your first insight to a teenage girls mind, let me warn you sometimes its not pretty.

As for the title of this post i feel that it is fitting as i am literally feeling confused. All day my nan has been talking to be about my fiance and let me tell i'm tired of it. Not because of the questions or her its the whole thing in general.

Now WOMEN OF THE WORLD i am talking to you as i need help. My Boyfriend / Fiance is clingy there's no doubt about that. He's 20 years old and he is supposed to be enjoying his life, not constantly bothering me with texts and phone calls. Fair enough we have a long distance type relationship going on as we are 5 hours apart but seriously i have a life and it doesn't revolve around being on my phone every second of the day.

 I know some of you are thinking whats there to complain about well let me tell you, its not just the constant texts in the morning, i mean a few is fine to say good morning and that but when I AM still asleep i really don't appreciate it. I have trouble sleeping and he knows this and when i get a good night sleep i want to sleep in till my alarm goes off, which he also knows. However with him there is a fine line of him knowing and understanding. He seems to think that its okay to call me 8 times in the morning continuously until i picked up. Now if someone doesn't pick up the phone after the two tries then i leave them be especially when its early in the morning but he didn't now wouldn't you get pissed of as well. And its not just that i am busy all the time. i used to be in full time education but due to medical reasons i have to take the rest of this school year off. However i have a full-time job as a Carer for a 15 year old disabled girl and she is amazing and most of my time is spent with her. Now at work you don't use your phone, your meant to be professional i mean you can use for phone every now and then but constantly however my boyfriend seems to think lets piss ashleii off and text her while she is working. Do you know how frustrating it is to see my phone vibrate every 5 minutes from  new message and my boss looks at me and asks "is that him again" even she is getting tired of it. i need my space.

He is at university and has about 6 hours of lectures a week. i work from 2-8 every weekday along with 3pm on friday till sunday at 2pm. i barely spend time at home cause i am working and when i get home i am exhausted. i also have to focus on keeping up with my 4 a-level subjects and their coursework. i havent got the time. I am stressy because i am always going to doctors appointments and hospital check ups and i dont enjoy being stressed out by him. he thinks that because he has all this free time i do too and that i should text him 24/7. i don't. i don't want to be glued to my phone

Do i love him? yes i do. He is always there for me but i need to breathe sometimes. i feel smothered is that so wrong? what i'm confused about is how to tell him to basically back off and give me room to breathe but bare in mind i do love him with all my heart.

Now MEN OF THE WORLD i ask you how the hell do i get him to back off a little. i mean i know you men don't appreciate a clingy woman so how do you get them to back off in a nice way ? please help cause i am so confused on how to deal with this.

anyway rant over laters Bloggers

Ashleii xo